BPD is controlling my life at the moment. I'm a girl obsessed with perfection in its strangest forms. I'm a lesbian with straight girl ways. I'm an artist with no outlet. An addict with no addiction. I'm a walking mess. I like shoes, shopping, hello kitty, makeup, pink, piercings, elephants, and wishing on
all girlie things. This is basically a place for me to vent my dark side. The real me.
Hey I Heard You Were A Wild One.
45301) Nothing is enjoyable anymore; food, shopping, vacations, parties. It’s all ruined.
I’ve been binge eating and shopping for the past 3 days…
I know it’s because I’ve been feeling so empty with my sister spending so much time with her sister in law and my girlfriend working. I really need a second job but I’m so scared of that process. I don’t drive and I don’t want to have to rely on people to give me rides but I’m at a point where I HAVE to do something. I hate my current job and I really need to start making more money since my girlfriend and I plan on moving in a year. That’s so scary considering there are still traits about her that get under my skin. I really wish I had someone to talk to about these things. Instead I blog about it…